Argue, Argue, Argue, Too Much Stress!!

All we do is argue right now, mainly over money. He asks, I transfer, he gets paid, I ask for it back and I get yelled at that all I want is his paycheck. He thinks I plan my bills around his piddly little check and all I've wanted is every check he ever gets. No, I want what he said he'd pay back when he borrowed it. I want him to pay his half of the cell phone bill, I want him to repay his grandparents the thousands of dollars they have spent fixing his piece of shit truck every time he's in an accident or it breaks down and needs towed home. I want him to pay us back for all the gas and cigarettes we buy him and have bought him because he didn't bother to get a job. Do I want it all at once? No, but if you say "I'll pay you back when I get paid" to me that means when you get a check you will be paying me back as much as you can without whining about it, without screaming at me about it, and without giving your buddies a big show about your mother calling and begging for money,,, when you of course you don't mention that you owe that and so much more! Does he not understand that if I short the phone bill so he can have $50 until he gets paid, that the $50 needs to come back to me so I can pay that bill? It's not that I want his check, I want him to honor what he says. I told him we will split his phone off my account when he gets paid the 30th so he can worry about his own phone bill,,, he got mad, well instead of buying his girlfriend, that he's never met in person who lives in NY and he swears he wants to marry and make a life with, presents and spending a fortune on postage,, how about pay your debts> then you will have even more money to send her! Does that piss me off? Yes it does! He falls in love over the Internet several times a year. She seems very nice, how about wait until you meet her a few times before you make plans. If he she dumps him while he's in Afghanistan it will end very badly for him and I know it because he is so emotional. Right now, I'm very upset, I'm angry, and I'm hurt. I love my son but right now I can't even speak to him!