Today was a pretty good day, I went Geocaching, got 3 First to Finds out of 3 attempts! Met a nice young Cacher and his wife, my mom did 2 caches with me,, her first ones! I did have Steven on my mind and talked about him with the Cacher I met, he is so young and medically retired because he messed up his feet and legs parachuting into Iraq and Afghanistan.
I couldn't write about until now but Steven and I had a major blow up Sunday, the day they had the departure ceremony in OH. I'm not going into details yet, but he really went off on me and told me I'm not being a good mother I'm smothering him. He threw in my face again the fact that he thinks his dad is so wonderful,,, I told him flat out he can think that if he wants, but it's selective memory because he hated going to his father's girlfriend's house when he was younger and when he was in his teens. His father didn't even pay 1 year's worth of child support from the time Steven was 2 until he turned 18. He went out of his way to show his GF's kids that he wasn't going to treat any better than them just because he was his son, so he went the opposite way and was pretty mean. I had to pick him up so many times in tears. He'll figure it out eventually, but I guess for now I'm the bad guy yet again. On the upside it did help get me out of my slump and back out doing something.
I love my son, more than life, I'd give up my own for him any day; he knows it, but it suits his purpose better at the moment to not remember that.
I have a week and half left of my vacation, no money and no gas,, but I will enjoy these days!
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